Sunday, June 25, 2017

My kinda "ME" time


There's a tremendous amount of stress and pressure put on me lately, being a parent, a daughter, mother, partner. All of these roles combined leave me not taking adequate care of myself -- which is what sustains me and gives me the energy to take care of all these other responsibilities that I have.



Though I know that I must take care of myself to be a better person, I always seem to get sidetracked. There’s always something else to do and someone else’s needs to fulfill. What I need to realize is that self-care is a necessity, and giving myself “Me Time” will allow me to be a more present individual.

I believe every mom/woman needs an occasional break for sanity's sake. This means taking time each day to do something for yourself. That's why Im lucky to have my "me-time" yesterday.

While some refer "me time " as a visit to a salon or spa, time with bffs/ girlfriends, staycation, alone time at the grocery/ mall , mine was different. I opted to go to the church all by myself. I went to St. Padre Pio Church in Libis.

Ito na ang kuwento, kaya Tagalog na. May popcorn ka na ba? Mahaba - haba ito😊 


My SaturDATE - my mom
Yesterday morning, maaga pa kami lumabas ni mommy para magpa laboratory siya. Since maaga kami, nakauwi din kami ng maaga. Nagsabi na ako  na magsisimba ako (anticipated mass) . Kinahapunan, I asked my mom kung sasama siya, napapagod pa daw siya. So, I left them (MITD, Mommy and the kids) at home. Okay naman ako. Wala akong dalang phone! Yes. Nasasanay na ako na walang telepono basta alam ko na nasa bahay lang lahat ng mahal ko sa buhay. Ayoko din ng destructions. I only got my coin purse, fan, shawl and ID with me. Importante ang ID kahit saan ako pumunta hindi pwedeng wala akong dalang ID!
Sa totoo lang, takot ako lumabas mag-isa lalo sa mall. Hindi ko pa yata na try na maglakad-lakad sa mall ng matagal na mag isa. Iba yung sa mall ako nag work dati. Lalabas lang ako para magpupunta sa  restroom, kakain at kapag uuwi na. Pero mag gagala mag isa... AYOKO! 😂 Pero kapag mag sisimba magisa, ay, ayan, kayang-kaya kong gawin yan. Minsan talaga mas gusto ko pa magisa kapag magsisimba. But since tinuturuan at minumulat namin ang mga bagets, dapat magkakasama kami magsimba.

Natatandaan ko nung High School at College ako, maaga akong pumapasok para makadaan sa chapel sa school. Walang palya yan. Akala ko nga magiging madre ako hehe. Hindi pala yun ang calling ko. 😜 Siguro dahil bata pa lang ako kasama na ako lagi ng mommy at daddy ko sa simbahan lalo kapag Wednesday sa Our Mother of Perpetual Help in Baclaran. Nung tumanda na ako, nakakapunta lang ako sa church magisa kapag masama ang loob , nagagalit at gusto kong umiyak pero wala akong makausap. Magbbyahe ako from Quezon City to Baclaran at the wee hours para lang magpunta sa church, sarado na kasi ang church na malapit dito sa amin kapag gabi na. Hindi ako natatakot sa mga masasamang loob (bad guys)  kahit alanganing oras kasi nga galit ako at masama (din) ang loob 😡.

Am I mad or masama ang loob kahapon kaya ako nagpunta sa church magisa? NO. Marami akong dala-dalang isipin, takot, at pag- aalala dahil sa mga nangyayari nitong mga nakaraan. Kaya medyo nawawala ako sa sirkulasyon. Natatakot ako na baka hindi ko kayanin. Wala naman akong ibang maasahan talaga kundi si Lord. Kaya, the Gospel and homily were very timely.

The Gospel is from the book of Matthew 10:26-33 Jesus said to the twelve : 26 “So have no fear of them, ifor nothing is covered that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known. 27 What I tell you in the dark, say in the light, and what you hear whispered, proclaim on jthe housetops. 28 And kdo not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather fear him lwho can destroy both soul and body in hell.8 29 Are not two sparrows sold for a penny?9 And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father. 30 But meven the hairs of your head are all numbered. 31 Fear not, therefore; nyou are of more value than many sparrows. 32 oSo everyone who acknowledges me before men, I also will acknowledge before my Father who is in heaven, 33 but pwhoever denies me before men, qI also will deny before my Father who is in heaven.
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In short, HAVE NO FEAR!



During the homily, sabi ni Father para makuha ang goal o mamuhay ng tahimik at masaya, dapat may 3 Rs :

1. Refuse/ reject all worries, fears, all the negative feelings as they are the works of Satan. Do not entertain such feelings. And focus on the important matters/ people.
2. Repent
3. Rely on God alone. Trust in Him.

Ito pa isa kong nagustuhan sa sinabi niya, kaya naisip ko tama lang pala ang ginagawa ko. Iwasan na ang "I's " na nakaka cause ng kasalanan ... iPad, iPhone lol (pun intended). Iyong mga taong malimit mag post ng mga kinakainan na mamahalin, nagbakasyon sa mga mararangyang lugar. Nakaka cause daw ng pagka inggit sa iba na walang kakayanan. Naka focus lang ang mga tao sa "I" o sa sarili. Pati si father, natatakam daw sa mga nakikita niya. Lol. Ang Facebook daw ay nakakasira ng relationships - all kinds of relationship. True for some. Pero ako nagf-facebook na lang for campaigns and events. I rarely post personal stuff. Pati nga trip around the world namin ng family hindi ko na pinost. (Sa panaginip lang kase. Hahaha) Kaya dito na ako nagpost ng personal story ko.
Gising na gising lahat ng tao noong homily yesterday, somehow nakakarelate. Nagtatawanan. Okay sa alright si father! Kaya medyo gumaan gaan ang dinadala ko. Ang masaya pa nung kakantahin na ang Ama Namin, iba talaga ang dating sa akin ng old version. Mas ramdam ko at mas feel. And then, the best part is the pray over and anointing of the oil. Ang dami nila maglagay ng oil. Kaya ako ay umuwi na nagmamantika. Kaya hindi na rin ako nakadaan ng Go Salads kse gusto ko umabot ang oil sa bahay. ☺️Wala akong pakialam kung tumitingin mga passengers sa jeep dahil na dami ng mantika sa noo at leeg ko. Ang hindi nila alam, may oil pa ako sa kamay. Talagang iningatan ko para maipahid ko sa mga mahal ko na uuwian sa bahay. Nakatulog ako ng masarap kagabi. Magaan talaga sa pakiramdam kapag lumalapit ka sa Diyos at ipagkakatiwala mo na lang ang lahat sa kanya. Kaya walang tatalo sa " me " time ko kahapon...

The best "ME" time ever!!! 

It is not selfish to have a me time, lalo at si Lord naman kasama mo. 



I Offer My Life

All that I am, all that I have
I lay them down before You, oh Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaims
The joy and the pain, I'm making them Yours

Lord, I offer my life to You
Everything I've been through, use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You as a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer You my life

Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my hopes, all of my plans
My heart and my hands are lifted to You

Lord, I offer my life to You
Everything I've been through, use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You as a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer You my life

What can we give that You have not given?
And what do we have that is not already Yours?
All we possess are these lives we're living
That's what we give to You, Lord

Lord, I offer my life to You
Everything I've been through, use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You as a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer You my life

Lord, I offer my life to You
Everything I've been through, use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You as a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer You my life
Lord I offer You my life


1 comment:

  1. The same me time i should have. Thank you for reminding me that indeed, anyone could reach out to Him.

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